Post by Kindred Blue on Jun 2, 2006 14:44:59 GMT -5
Because It's clear that you love my life and my regular real-life columns.. I'm a walkiing magazine!
Beware - you are dealing with an emotional Kinneh and there may be writings that are disgustingly soppy and stuff that Kin doesnt normally show or say :]
Today the firey, independent, angsty, crazy and annoying Kinneh is doing a very strange thing. And asking for advice (in the process of getting everything off her chest).
So lets begin.
Kinneh's love life works in 5 year rotations. I've had one serious boyfriend whom I never actually kissed, and I've been hurt alot in the past. Of a total of four boyfriends in these 15 years, one I was too young to understand I was dating him, another dated me because he was dared to, another knew he was going to finish me for a week and didnt have the balls to do it, until his friend finally told me, and he went off and got a new girlfriend that same day. The fourth was that serious one.
So we gather Kin's not the luckiest.
But then.. then there was Mike. Who is seen below in all his cuteness.
I've only known him for a little while.. and I know he fancies my best friend. But yesterday, it was just me, him, and Jenny (the best friend) and he was good to me ._. He's one of those really flirty guys.. and I have this tendency of taking my confidence from other confident people around me, so for once I actually returned the favour and flirted. Like alot.
We walked from the middle of town all the way down to near Layton, which is a fair distance (Hazel will know). And all the way there, even though we were with Jenny, he walked behind me with his arms around my waist. It was so comfortable, so relaxing. And he kept.. like.. this is going to sound so kinky but he kept biting me. Like the back of my neck and my shoulder.. I don't get turned on by bites or anything (even though I have a friend who does XD ) but it was somewhat.. nice o_o' -blush- And even though he was soomewhat touchy-feely at points (like not in a perverted way, in a flirty-having-fun way) I liked the attention.. cause I never get that sort of attention.
And then Jenny went in and we were left alone. I was pretty nervous cause I was expecting us to run of thiings to talk about.. but he was behind me again, his arms were around me and we had so much to say and so much to talk about. And it was just so right.. we kept entwining our fingers.. and the way he walked behind me.. it was like having a guardian angel behind me, holding me in its arms and sheltering me in its wings ._. (Told you it'd get disgustly soppy.)
We flirted alot, too. One of our conversations went like so (after we'd had a mini "argument" that wasnt actually an argument);
Me; "Shut uppp. ):"
Mike; "Make me (:"
"I don't know how!"
"Well... no doesn't matter."
"What?"
"Well.. the only way to shut me up would be to kiss me.. and you wouldn't wanna do that."
"Oh, you never know."
And when we got back into town.. we went to wait at my bus stop and we sat on the grass there. And after a minute of sitting, I lay back on the grass, and he smiled and said "Is that an invitation?" and I said "Maybe." And he grinned and lay down next to me. And we lay there for a while just talking, and I thought the bus was coming, so we both sat up.. but it wasn't my bus so he lay back down again. And this time, I said "Is THAT an invitation? (;" and he said "Maybe (;" I didn't lie down.. but next thing I knew he pulled on my bag strap and pulled me close to him.
And he wrapped his arms around me.. and I put my arm over him and we just lay there.. hell he smelt so good. He tried to bite my forehead and I laughed and pulled my head away, and he said "Aww I'm sorry," moved me back, and kissed my forehead. And there was just this moment... where we were lying there, and he was looking down at me and I was looking back at him and we were so happy and stuff.
He started randomly laughing for no reason, and I smiled, asked him why. He kept refusing to tell me.. we both sat up and I jokingly said I wasn't his friend cause he was laughing at me, and everything I said that he put his arms around me and pulled me towards him and whined "Nooooo nononoo." After alot of persuasion, the conversation went as follows;
Mike; "Well.. I'm laughing at you for the same reason I laugh at Jenny."
Me; "-much thinking- ...You laugh at Jenny becaussseeee.. you fancy her?"
"-nods-"
"So you're laughing at me because you fancy me?"
"Yeah."
I was just.. just really happy. It's really not often I get something like this and it just put me on cloud 9. He started saying something and stopped, so I prodded him and asked him what he was trying to say, and he said "Well.. I was laughing at myself.. for thinking about you like that.. when I know you wouldn't go out with me anyway." And I smirked and said "I would go out with you."
He smiled. And said "Oh good, I don't feel like such a jerk now."
My bus came.. and we hugged.. one of those lingering hugs where when you pull apart and start to walk away, you're still holding hands.. and I was practically on the bus when our fingers last brushed together. And he waved to me as the bus pulled away..
And all night.. I couldn't sleep, I kept thinking about him ._. Such a bad infatuation.. I wouldn't even call it a crush, infatuation is the best fitting word. And I couldn't wait to see him again.
But he wasn't out today :\ Turns out him, Paul (Jenny's boyfriend who is soon to be dumped for reasons explained soon), and Gaz (Paul's mate) managed to get themselves arrested lastnight for disrespecting the cenetar (which is a memoial for the war). So.. Paul said that Mike was likely to be grounded for the next century and I just deflated. And that wasn't even the bombshell.
Apparently. APPAENTLY. Mike has a girlfriend ._.' But I dunno.. I'm sure if I trust Paul cause he's got three girls on the run at once right now, which is why Jenny is ending it.
I'm good friends with Aisha, Mike's latest ex.. and apparently he cheated on her 102 times in 2 weeks and actually counted. But even though I'm hearing these stories that he's a jerk, and a cheater... I still want to see him. Infact, I'm dying to see him. I am so fucking miserable knowing he might not be out tomorrow. I have to see him.
I am completely wrapped up in him. And it's horrible because I'm not even concerned by the fact he's a cheater and a two timer and he might sleep around, all I can think about is seeing him tomorrow.. hoping that by some obscure chance, he'll be out and he'll make me feel as good as yesterday ._.
Rio asked me what makes me so infatuated with him.. and I don't really know. How flirt he is. How no guy has ever paid me so much attention. The way he's happy to wrap his arms around me in public. The way he pulled me down beside him, so close to him.. The way he lightly moved his thumb, like a stroke, when he had his arms around me. How he kissed my forehead, how cutely competitive he is. How he bit me a hunded times and apologised for every one, but still did it again. And how.. how after one day he can make me remember all this.
Really, what should I do? Rio thinks that I should just date him (after I sort out the girlfriend thing), 'cause.. well it sounds stupid, but if I know he's going to be a jackass then at least I wont be hurt when it happens, because I already knew it. At least I'll have had a love of my life for long enough for me to enjoy it :\
Your opinions? I'd love any replies, and any help or opinion you can give.
And Hazel - no teasing me. :P
Beware - you are dealing with an emotional Kinneh and there may be writings that are disgustingly soppy and stuff that Kin doesnt normally show or say :]
Today the firey, independent, angsty, crazy and annoying Kinneh is doing a very strange thing. And asking for advice (in the process of getting everything off her chest).
So lets begin.
Kinneh's love life works in 5 year rotations. I've had one serious boyfriend whom I never actually kissed, and I've been hurt alot in the past. Of a total of four boyfriends in these 15 years, one I was too young to understand I was dating him, another dated me because he was dared to, another knew he was going to finish me for a week and didnt have the balls to do it, until his friend finally told me, and he went off and got a new girlfriend that same day. The fourth was that serious one.
So we gather Kin's not the luckiest.
But then.. then there was Mike. Who is seen below in all his cuteness.
I've only known him for a little while.. and I know he fancies my best friend. But yesterday, it was just me, him, and Jenny (the best friend) and he was good to me ._. He's one of those really flirty guys.. and I have this tendency of taking my confidence from other confident people around me, so for once I actually returned the favour and flirted. Like alot.
We walked from the middle of town all the way down to near Layton, which is a fair distance (Hazel will know). And all the way there, even though we were with Jenny, he walked behind me with his arms around my waist. It was so comfortable, so relaxing. And he kept.. like.. this is going to sound so kinky but he kept biting me. Like the back of my neck and my shoulder.. I don't get turned on by bites or anything (even though I have a friend who does XD ) but it was somewhat.. nice o_o' -blush- And even though he was soomewhat touchy-feely at points (like not in a perverted way, in a flirty-having-fun way) I liked the attention.. cause I never get that sort of attention.
And then Jenny went in and we were left alone. I was pretty nervous cause I was expecting us to run of thiings to talk about.. but he was behind me again, his arms were around me and we had so much to say and so much to talk about. And it was just so right.. we kept entwining our fingers.. and the way he walked behind me.. it was like having a guardian angel behind me, holding me in its arms and sheltering me in its wings ._. (Told you it'd get disgustly soppy.)
We flirted alot, too. One of our conversations went like so (after we'd had a mini "argument" that wasnt actually an argument);
Me; "Shut uppp. ):"
Mike; "Make me (:"
"I don't know how!"
"Well... no doesn't matter."
"What?"
"Well.. the only way to shut me up would be to kiss me.. and you wouldn't wanna do that."
"Oh, you never know."
And when we got back into town.. we went to wait at my bus stop and we sat on the grass there. And after a minute of sitting, I lay back on the grass, and he smiled and said "Is that an invitation?" and I said "Maybe." And he grinned and lay down next to me. And we lay there for a while just talking, and I thought the bus was coming, so we both sat up.. but it wasn't my bus so he lay back down again. And this time, I said "Is THAT an invitation? (;" and he said "Maybe (;" I didn't lie down.. but next thing I knew he pulled on my bag strap and pulled me close to him.
And he wrapped his arms around me.. and I put my arm over him and we just lay there.. hell he smelt so good. He tried to bite my forehead and I laughed and pulled my head away, and he said "Aww I'm sorry," moved me back, and kissed my forehead. And there was just this moment... where we were lying there, and he was looking down at me and I was looking back at him and we were so happy and stuff.
He started randomly laughing for no reason, and I smiled, asked him why. He kept refusing to tell me.. we both sat up and I jokingly said I wasn't his friend cause he was laughing at me, and everything I said that he put his arms around me and pulled me towards him and whined "Nooooo nononoo." After alot of persuasion, the conversation went as follows;
Mike; "Well.. I'm laughing at you for the same reason I laugh at Jenny."
Me; "-much thinking- ...You laugh at Jenny becaussseeee.. you fancy her?"
"-nods-"
"So you're laughing at me because you fancy me?"
"Yeah."
I was just.. just really happy. It's really not often I get something like this and it just put me on cloud 9. He started saying something and stopped, so I prodded him and asked him what he was trying to say, and he said "Well.. I was laughing at myself.. for thinking about you like that.. when I know you wouldn't go out with me anyway." And I smirked and said "I would go out with you."
He smiled. And said "Oh good, I don't feel like such a jerk now."
My bus came.. and we hugged.. one of those lingering hugs where when you pull apart and start to walk away, you're still holding hands.. and I was practically on the bus when our fingers last brushed together. And he waved to me as the bus pulled away..
And all night.. I couldn't sleep, I kept thinking about him ._. Such a bad infatuation.. I wouldn't even call it a crush, infatuation is the best fitting word. And I couldn't wait to see him again.
But he wasn't out today :\ Turns out him, Paul (Jenny's boyfriend who is soon to be dumped for reasons explained soon), and Gaz (Paul's mate) managed to get themselves arrested lastnight for disrespecting the cenetar (which is a memoial for the war). So.. Paul said that Mike was likely to be grounded for the next century and I just deflated. And that wasn't even the bombshell.
Apparently. APPAENTLY. Mike has a girlfriend ._.' But I dunno.. I'm sure if I trust Paul cause he's got three girls on the run at once right now, which is why Jenny is ending it.
I'm good friends with Aisha, Mike's latest ex.. and apparently he cheated on her 102 times in 2 weeks and actually counted. But even though I'm hearing these stories that he's a jerk, and a cheater... I still want to see him. Infact, I'm dying to see him. I am so fucking miserable knowing he might not be out tomorrow. I have to see him.
I am completely wrapped up in him. And it's horrible because I'm not even concerned by the fact he's a cheater and a two timer and he might sleep around, all I can think about is seeing him tomorrow.. hoping that by some obscure chance, he'll be out and he'll make me feel as good as yesterday ._.
Rio asked me what makes me so infatuated with him.. and I don't really know. How flirt he is. How no guy has ever paid me so much attention. The way he's happy to wrap his arms around me in public. The way he pulled me down beside him, so close to him.. The way he lightly moved his thumb, like a stroke, when he had his arms around me. How he kissed my forehead, how cutely competitive he is. How he bit me a hunded times and apologised for every one, but still did it again. And how.. how after one day he can make me remember all this.
Really, what should I do? Rio thinks that I should just date him (after I sort out the girlfriend thing), 'cause.. well it sounds stupid, but if I know he's going to be a jackass then at least I wont be hurt when it happens, because I already knew it. At least I'll have had a love of my life for long enough for me to enjoy it :\
Your opinions? I'd love any replies, and any help or opinion you can give.
And Hazel - no teasing me. :P
